memories in degree - sem 3 n 4

hey it's been long time i didn't update my blog.. have 2 admit tat sumtimes i feel very lazy 2 update.. i just started my new sem for my 5th semester in uitm shah alam.. i only got 1 sem left which is gonna b my practical in sem 6.. wow how fast d time goes by huh.. 4 tis column, i wanted 2 share wit u my memories during degree in shah alam cuz i had gone through so many hard things tat really took my patience.. surviving 28 credit hours in every sem is really tough 4 me.. only God knows how tough d challenges in dgree tat i have 2 face.. plus m travelling from my own houz in sunway 2 uitm everyday..but d most greatest thang during dgree tat i've gained is being more independent n i also had manage things there until i got good pointers =) hope u'll njoy reading tis...

• majoring in broadcasting 4 dgree
• i can do my dgree 4 two years instead 0f 3 years which i can grad in 2011 next year!
• mum doesn't want me 2 rent a houz wit frenz in s.alm 2 save budget. plus sunway n s.alam is not tat far. i agree although is't kinda tiring 2 travel everyday 2 claz especially when i got gaps or pack classes. owh ya n bad traffics!
• i drive 2 uitm everyday but when i got no car, mum or dad will send n fetch me.
• i do take komuters sumtimes. sum1 got 2 send me there cuz d station is kinda far from uitm.
• it really takes time 4 me 2 adapt wit d environment in s.alam; no more girl talk in asrama, no more 24-7 laughters wit my besties like i used 2 in melaka, no more sharing ideas 4 clothes wit frenz, less outing wit frenz n stuff cuz i stay in my own houz n so on...
• d thing tat i hate d most in s.alm is d parking system.. hard 2 find parking afta 8 am. n when i got parking, other students will double park my car n i have 2 'tolak' all d cars on my own everytime nk kuar.. tat's y i got muscles n sunburns.. i also can easily piss off..
• i've bcome more moody compared 2 d time when i was in melaka.. n more hot tempered n emotional = dpress
• far away from faiz.. n he rarely blk time dgree cuz bz..
• got 2 do houz work at d same time.. walaupun da stress kt uitm.
• i struggle wit all my projects n assignments.. 28 credit hours kot.. lack of rest
• sumtimes got 2 stay 1 whole day in uitm from 8 am til 1am..
• 7 days in uitm is normal especially when got work in studio n assessment..
• i kinda lose weight actually during dgree.. hehe.. most poeple said so.. bt i like it 2 b tis way ;P

Among d good memories:

• good classmates n they are awesome!
• i got good pointers so far n DL 4 both sems.. hopefully i can remain it cuz i wanna get scholarship frm Ptptn if i grad wit 1st claz.. Amin.
• easy 2 communicate wit d people in my claz n we're like family although there r some conflicts tat need 2 b handle..
• more interesting activities such as; tmn negara , broadcast dinner in PD, gathering wit my classmates , mkn2 2gether n many more...
• good team work in production..
• had many fun experience during production under pn. lola. she is like our mum. i love her so much!
• did a drama n entertainment show 4 production..
• dance poco2 4 broadcast event..
• join dancing wit remy 4 performance in mascom n also 4 business course. we had gud feedback 4rm d audience ;)
• i got d best dress 4 d broadcast dinner . i dressed like an angel which makes me got d highest votes from d broadcast students.. n my prom king was juwaidi @ ju onn hahaha
• kinda hapy when buat keje wit my group members.. x byk kerenah. Alhamdulillah =)
• jd rapat wit ain nasis ;)
• faiz penah dtg 4 my drama preview in uitm.. best
• did animation bout 'colors of malaysia'
• got my diploma convocation =)

can someone cheer me up?

i hate 2 b moody
i just want 2 b happy.

i dun want 2 cry
i just want 2 smile happily.

i dun want a sadness
but i want happiness.

i dun want 2 b in a darkness
but plz give me d brightness.

i want my life 2 b fantastic
not pathetic.

i just want 2 b loved
but pain is love.

i wish tat i dun hate myself
but 2 love myself.

life wil b meaningful
if i make it beautiful.

i dun want my life 2 b meaningless
so got 2 live life 2 d fullest!



by: ili nadrah

so frustrated =(

I WANTED 2 WATCH TIS. I WANTED 2 WATCH TIS. I WANTED 2 WATCH TIS. I WANTED 2 WATCH TIS. I WANTED 2 WATCH TIS. I WANTED 2 WATCH TIS. I WANTED 2 WATCH TIS. I WANTED 2 WATCH TIS. I WANTED 2 WATCH TIS. I WANTED 2 WATCH TIS.

CAN'T U SEE? IM SO EAGER 2 WATCH TIS MOVIE BUT STIL HAVEN'T GOT D CHANCE YET =(

one big happy family! - KMN 2010

KMN stands for : Keluarga Mat Nasib. As you can see d pic above was during family day for Mat nasib's family. The 13th family day was held in Banglo UDA, Fraser's Hill. Fraser's Hill is d place where we always gather 4 family day. I hardly remember how many times we did ere. If im not mistaken, there are approximately 48 people had attend tis family day but there were also some family who got 2 return home a bit earlier so their pic were not ere. For ur information, d pic above doesn't show overall of d family. There are about 4 families who couldn't join tis family day. Among d families who joined: Wan chor's fam, Mak yan's fam, Ayah Lop's fam, Pak Ngah's fam, Mak teh's fam, Ayah Jang's fam, Wan Chik's fam, my fam n Pak Usu's fam. i hope i didn't miss any fam ere ;P

KMN is a very2 big family. it is from my mum's side, from Ipoh, Perak. My mum got many siblings. She is d second youngest in d family n also d youngest 4 a girl in d family. Although there r some of d siblings are from different marriage, but they live happily together under one roof. The bond are very strong and they are very close. Tat's y we had tis kind of gathering every year 2 strengthen d bond among each other n not forgotten 2 d 2nd n 3rd generation in d family. Family day is d best way 2 gather n see each other at 1 time where the families can share stories, keep updating themselves n catch up wit each other.

During tis family day, there are many activities tat had been arranged. My dad is d event manager 4 tis gathering. every time family day, he gona b very bz 2 arrange d schedule for family day. Same goes 2 my mum, who in charge 4 d prizes. Among d activities are such as; senamrobik, sukaneka, game n quizzes, solat berjemaah, karaoke, photography n many more. Tis year there also a new theme for dinner which is 'Flora n Fauna'. D nite where all KMN members can dress up beautifully. It was a wonderful moment.

I also wud like 2 welcome abg bastian n abg Fauzi who had just joined our family since last year. Abg Bastian got married 2 Wan Chor's daughter, K. murni n they got a new baby boy, Aaron. Same goes to abg fauzi who got married 2 Mak Yan's daughter, k. ayu n they got a new baby girl, Qistina Damia. Another Wan Chor's daughter also got her 2nd baby girl named Aimee. owhhhh, they're extremely cute!!!! no doubt.

I can say tat i am very lucky 2 b apart of tis big family. Like i said before, i feel so grateful 2 b blessed wit a wonderful family.. I had many excitements wit KMN where we had spent many wonderful moment 2gether especially during raya n family gathering. Not forgotten 2 d family on my dad's side, Pahang. I love both families!

p/s: we should appreciate our family coz they will always gonna b by your side no matter wut...

fitness first!

yesterday i went 2 c my old friend, soleha who used 2 work wit california fitness n also celebrity fitness. n we also talked bout body shape n stuff. she had ask me 2 join d fitness centre in order 2 stay in shape. but i dun tink i need 2 pay 4 tis kind of stuff cuz i tink im already fit n i already love my own body. i used 2 like skinny bodies cus i believed tat wit skinny bodies u gona look good when u dress up especially for a girl who got passion in fashion like me :) sumhow i noe people say beeing too skinny is not healthy. it can b even worst when u looked like victoria beckham n paris hilton. wut i want now is just 2 b thin but not too skinny nor too fat. i tink i just love my own body. i just need 2 toned up a bit my muscles n try 2 do a belly dance to have a nice curve! btw i just came back from jogging wit faiz. we both want 2 b fit n healthy so we chose 2 do some jogging n hiking. among d places tat we went ; bkt gasing, tasik subang jaya n tmn jaya. .

tp lps 2 mkn je lbh.... ;P

finding snowy!

"imam!!! snowy hilang...." i shouted to my brother from downstairs when i really got panic once i heard a familiar sound from my compound which makes me wanna check it out. owh my, it was snowy, my kitty who got out from the cage n chased another male cat. they often quarrel although snowy had been put in a cage tat already been locked up. but it was really a chaos when snowy got d chance to chase another male cat from out of his cage. i was about 2 wash my laundries tat time but end up i have 2 run outside 2 get my snowy back. my brother n i went outside d house n we assumed snowy went 2 our neighbour's house next door because their sliding door was open. unfortunately, no one from d house realize we were outside d house to look for snowy. i looked around to my other neighbours' house but still couldn't find snowy. i went back 2 my house 2 get my cell phone n called my dad n told him wut had happen. as i predicted, my dad was very upset n still want us 2 bring snowy back. i noe im tat gonna get d blame if i fail 2 find snowy cuz i was d one who put snowy's food in d cage tat morning. i still search for snowy bt tis time in one junction nearby our house. wit God's help i heard snowy's bell n when i bend downwords, i saw snowy sitting under one car. n after a few minutes we could bring snowy back 2 our house. i thank God 4 helping me finding my snowy n luckyly snowy is wearing d bell on its neck which make it easier 4 us 2 trace him. i guess d cat need more attention from us... plz dun do tis again snowy...

having insomnia

it's already 5.50 am n im stil awake n still sitting infront of my laptop n do blogging... at tis time most people wud b awake n start their new day after having their good rest n sleep. why can't i do d same thing like others, or at least b like a normal people which they got right schedule 2 sleep or they can just sleep whenever they feel they wanted to. im being just like a nocturnal cuz not be able 2 sleep at nite. not every nite but mostly.. sometimes it's hard 4 me 2 sleep although my body feels very tired n exhausted. im having insomnia which is a symptom tat characterized by persistant difficulty falling asleep. among d things tat cause insomnia r such as caffein, stress, n depression. i admit tat im addicted 2 caffein bt i still control d amount tat i took. some says tat i need 2 drink milk at nite, switch off all d lights or try 2 put some lavender in my room. bt how far it can help me 2 sleep cuz i still can't fall asleep easily. when u look at my eyes, u'll know why i look like a panda with my ugly eye backs...

we can paint away our pain through art therapy!

have you heard of art therapy which combines art and psychology to help us to cope with mental and emotional illness? arts is not only producing a masterpiece, but it can help us in expressing our pain where there is no other means to release... according to an art therapist, we don't have to be good like Picasso for the art therapy, but it is just about having freedom to paint, draw, make or say anything you want. you don't have to seek for a punch bag either. it only gona hurts your hand like i did before ;P

among the benefits of art therapy:

• reduces anxiety n stress
• improve self-esteem n confidence
• help cope wit grief n loss
• develop better interpersonal skills
• helps one overcome anger n depression

i guess we just need some papers n d art ingredients 2 express our pain n anger instead of hurting yourself punching d punch bag. let's draw some interesting illustration :)

moody n grumpy =(

why am i always got tis feeling; moody n grumpy?? i gues it's normal 4 gals bt somehow i just hate 2 b moody cuz i can easily show my anger 2 people around me especially 2 my loved ones. thousand apologies 4 those who had faced tis kind of situation when i was not in d mood n grumpy. i dun mean 2 show my moodiness but sometimes i just can't control myself...

welcome 2 my pinky world!

heys.. as u can see, im a girl who lives in a pinky world cuz im a pink freak! tat's y d layout of tis blog is also in pink.. it portray my character... girlish. do i look girlish?? most people say tat im a girlish girl or in another word they call me 'ayu'.. just bcoz i looked very soft-spoken.. haha sounds perasan rite? bt honestly i didn't say tat... it's how people perceived bout me. i mean most people... but actually once u get 2 noe me, u will never call me ayu nor soft-spoken. cuz i really can b in other way round! i mean if u really2 noe me well.. im not tat soft act... i can also b bitchy to gals who mess wit me. owh i keep saying tat now.

nvm. just forget bout it. back 2 d pinky world, i love pink. it's my fav colour. i kinda got so many stuff in pink. my room is even decorated in pink! n u shud c my wardrobe, i got so many pink outfits. even my mum n my boyfriend got so tired looking at my pink stuff ;P "takde baju colour lain ke? mesti nk pink jgk".. bt it's my favourite colour.. mestila nk pink je =) i tend 2 chose pink outfits 4 my dates. it makes me feel gud. bt not all d time. i do got other colour outfits.. sory i just got excited when talkig bout pink. neway, i noe it's kinda late 4 me 2 start blogging, bt who cares rite... as long as im hapy =)

act i did tis blog 4 my elective class, on9 journalism in previous semester. d lect wants us 2 make a blog. so i created tis blog in order 2 publish d articles tat we have made in class. bt our lect didin'd encourage us 2 post 2 our blog bcoz all d articles were related with d political issues. he does not want us 2 be caught by d ISA if there were a sensitive issue bout politics n stuff. . therefore, i leave my blog empty without any post 4 quite long until my bf inspired me 2 write in tis blog afta he had link 2 his blog, 'merpati biru'. n he is very into blogging. i gues i shud just give it a try although im not really into blogging. besides its semester break. i got time 2 write in tis blog. during class i really got no time 2 do all tis stuff bcoz i got a hectic life in uitm shah alm. trust me, it's even more hectic than melaka . i got many assignments, test, quizzes, shooting n stuff.. if ur a masscommer, u will noe how hectic d life can be. so i warn poeple out there, never underestimate our work kayh!!! although we're not d professionals, bt our work is tough n challenging. i gues tis is 4 a start. im gona stop til ere. thank you 4 spending ur time reading tis. da pg buat keje lain... hehe =)